Filed under: Literature, music | Tags: books, clutter, coffee, emily dickinson, feelgood, jason mraz, Literature, music, potatoes, telesales, weather, weekend
Today is Monday, and the rest of the week is looming threateningly around the corner. So far it’s been a week of temperamental laptop issues, cold weather and telesales harrassment. Although I try to be positive in the face of Monday misery… I just want to go back to bed and set my alarm for Spring.
My bedroom is a sanctuary this evening, away from the post-weekend clutter that has taken over the sitting room. I’ve seen cigarette ash hiding under the couch, and the kitchen is buried under a pile of dirty teatowels and empty bottles.
This man is the only reason I’m smiling right now!
This is Jason Mraz singing ‘I’m Yours’. I’ve been singing this song like an idiot for the last few days. This is live in Hyde Park last year – I love the way he plays with the crowd.
Other things that are improving my mood today:
1. GOOD coffee.
2. Potato farls (maybe an Irish thing?)
3. And this Emily Dickinson poem:
The words the happy say Are paltry melody But those the silent feel Are beautiful –
I’m also excited about starting a new book this evening – I have a stack of around 22 books waiting to be read, and I’m definitely going to choose something cheerful.
Is there a song that makes you smile instantly?
Filed under: LOVE, Literature, Relationships, philosophy | Tags: attention, audience, devotion, existence, lightness of being, literary fiction, Literature, LOVE, milan kundera, philosophy, prague, psychology, relationship
A few years ago I read The Unbearable Lightness of Being. It blew me away. It’s a novel by Milan Kundera set in Prague in 1968, and although I’m sure the book is of huge political and cultural importance I was most impressed by Kundera’s philosophy. His observations throughout the book provide an inspiring insight into the human mind.
Years later, I fell in love, devoted three years of my life to a certain beautiful person, and skipped the country when our relationship disintegrated. Months later we caught up and spent a night talking about ourselves, our love and our loss. One of the comments I made that night was that I felt at the time as if I had an invisible audience everywhere I went. I’m always looking for the approval or admiration of this group of fantasy critics.
Often, when I look back on a situation in my life where I behaved in a manner most people would describe as promiscuous/loud/irresponsible I can honestly say that I was just looking for a good story. Life is more interesting when you say ‘yes’, and an interesting life leads to interesting stories. My critics, immaterial as they are, love a good story.
Last night I watched The Unbearable Lightness of Being for the first time. It’s a beautiful film, and really captures the characters as they were written. Today I did a little more reading, and came across a quote that resonates deeply with me:
“We all need somebody to look at us. We can be divided into four categories according to the kind of look we wish to live under. The first category longs for the look of an infinite number of anonymous eyes, in other words, for the look of the public…
The second category is made up of people who have a vital need to be looked at by many known eyes. They are the tireless hosts of cocktail parties and dinners…
Then there is the third category, the category of people who need to be constantly before the eyes of the person they love. Their situation is as dangerous as the situation of people in the first category. One day the eyes of their beloved will close, and the room will go dark..
And finally there is the fourth category, the rarest, the category of people who live in the imaginary eyes of those who are not present. They are the dreamers.”
So I’m a dreamer. It’s a theory I’m going to keep in mind over the next while, as I’m sure it has practical applications in gaining a deeper understanding of those around us.
Which are you?
‘Today I Will Fly’ by 

‘Arthur and George’ by Julian Barnes, based on a real world miscarriage of justice in Victorian England. Arthur Conan Doyle becomes Sherlock Holmes in this beautifully written, meticulously researched novel. A British Knight with a penchant for disguises, a love affair hidden from a consumptive wife, the clever but remarkably ordinary George Edalji and the author’s droll sense of humour combine to create a book that demands attention.