Oh man.
Maybe it’s because NOTHING in my life is stable, that I need him to be…….. maybe it’s because I have serious doubts about our future that I want him to, just, deal with somehow…….. maybe it’s because his friends are incapable of having a conversation, and because he’s so quiet……… I don’t know……..
I know I love him, I do, I want to be with him, and hold him, and touch him, and some nights I don’t want to let him go…………..
But we don’t talk, much, and he doesn’t show he cares, much, or maybe he does, but it’s HIS way, and not mine………
And do we laugh much, or enough, or at all, and when was the last time he made me laugh til I cried, or gave me a pain in my stomach, or made me feel really beautiful and special and needed………. because I need that, it’s not enough to be endured, I need to be enjoyed, every moment I give to him should be cherished…………..
And am I just upset tonight because he’s making time for his friends when he can never seem to make time for me, but why can’t he make time for me, or why doesn’t he want to, and if he doesn’t, then we shouldn’t be together, should we?
